I Am Most Thankful for the Difficult Things This Year

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Looking back over the year, 2013 has not been one of my best—not even close. But that’s what I’m thankful for.

Maturing children... shifting relationships... ongoing health concerns... new health challenges... fiscal challenges... injuries and illnesses... and other things I don’t want to enumerate have all made 2013 kind of a sucky year for me by some measures. Illness left me wondering if that will become an increasingly frequent visitor as I age; karate challenges repeatedly had me at the brink of quitting; and a certain loneliness and lack of purpose in my life led to a few rash decisions and ongoing reflection as to the path I’m walking.

I wish I could say that I see some kind of resolution ahead, but I don’t, save for the dojo. It’s undergone sweeping changes since the June promotion test which have so far been very positive for me, but more are likely. I’m trying to get the most out of the training as it is now while preparing for what may be substantive changes ahead.

Next year, I hope to be starting something new; but if so, it will bring a lot of changes to my household. Some of them will be good, but as much as I know anything, I know there’ll be unexpected changes for all three of us to deal with. That leaves me wondering whether it’s a good idea to even try for this new thing... even though if I do get it, it will address the purpose issue in my life.

As I have contemplated this jumble of thoughts, feelings, hopes, ideas, and goals over the past month, I’ve moved from feeling a little sorry for myself to realizing how much I’ve handled—mostly successfully—this year. And I know that many, many people all around the world would consider themselves blessed beyond measure to step out of their existence and into mine... Knowing that, and acknowledging that I’ve weathered the year pretty well has led me to be appreciative of the difficulties I’ve faced. The primary reason is that they have allowed me to demonstrate to myself that I haven’t given up on life; I still have a spark and am driven to do something with it, even if I don’t yet know what, where, or how.

So thank you, sucky 2013. You’re helping me kindle a flame in 2014 and beyond.

Blessings for 2014

Yin and yang, the essential balance that never stays balanced even if we occaionally arrive at it. But striving for the balance seems to be an essential part of life.

Without lemons, there can never be any lemonaide.

Glad you're making some of the sweet, sticky lemonaide and finding new and better ways to do so.

Wishing you and yours a joyous holiday season

... amidst all the challenges and changes. Here's hoping 2014 will be better for both of us. - HC

Yes, indeed!

All the best to you and yours in every aspect of your lives.